clean slate - wishfull

wish i can start the new year clean slate,

but, we do drag along things we dont want from past years... owh well...

happy 2010, its my year

half of what is left

"i only have half of it when we met... i lost the other half just a while before we met... now u take it all. guess its not mine to keep in the first place" - a boy who lost it all

2010

its the year. few things on the list. better keep them to myself, so that i wont remember it. i dont have much to achieve either. i'll use the year just to heal my soul. and maybe, maybe... do some workout. its a year of beauty, yeah... lets call it just that... 2010, year of beauty

you have something of mine

some are yours to keep, others...

floodgate is opening

stop it before it pours.. help

influence

they said it is hard to influence people. it is impossible for me, then again...

'difficult takes a day impossible takes a week' - jay-z

how long is long

.. to a person waiting for a train late for work, 10 minutes is long,

.. to a person so hungry queuing at a fast food restaurant counter, 10 men is long,

.. to a person stuck in a 3 kilometers jam, it's long,

.. to a person long jumping in an Olympic game, 9 meters is too long,

.. to a person reading a 2 page mumbling, it is too long

.. to a programmer, 2 mins compiling is long,

.. to a Chinese, black person's is long,

.. any person longing, anything is long,

.. it is very long.. answer me.. even if it is a no.

no body knows

i heard this from someone very close to me. she said 'you wouldnt know the feeling of being lonely'.. i said to myself 'i do'. and the world went silent for a while, it understands me.

When you think that things only do happen to you once...

then your thought is wrong. it had happened again. like a movie. reminds me of what i did to others too. its the same thing... the score is 2-1 though, others win against me. or is it 2 all? i lost count. what does it mean when a person went silent all of the sudden for more than 2 months? i know what i mean when i did that... cant sleep, been skipping dinners.. if you read this, please respond back. i just want to talk... sorry for everything, i know not of what i did wrong.

do stay safe and stay out of trouble

goodnight.

the believer, the skeptics and the scientist

if a tree fall in the forest, would it make a sound?

the believer - i can hear it even without a tree falling, heck i hear one right now

the skeptics - if i werent there, i cant prove it, no it does not make a sound, wait, did u just farted?

the scientist - yes it does make a sound, tested with my own sense and the sensors, a tree falling will always make a sound.

me - what are those three talking about? you just have to face what you paste on the facebook.

malls.... walking is tiring.

after walking through shop houses recently, i notice that the shops are far apart from each other. walking from one to another is tiring. now i know whey they invented the malls..

in china, almost everyone knows mandarin; so i heard

what is the language do chinese in malaysia speak? malay loh... ZzzzZZzzz

a blip - how it works

i dont ask for much, dont give out enough either. throughout this life, your actions will affect others; for me, i try my best to minimize both, the actions and the effects. i enjoy life of solitude. it works, for a quarter of a century. it ensures independence; lack of attachment, for me toward others, and others to me. at the same time leaves myself empty. am still leaving through it though, never felt lonelier, more than ever. felt like i want to go far away, staring at the stars on the hillside. lying on my back and thinking deeply.. and hope someone will join me someday.

this is it

i use to think that i will only start to write when i stop talking. maybe i will now, at least gradually.

let me gather my thoughts, until then..

"And the question is, is to have had and lost,
Better than not having at all?" Jay-Z

a blip

my life is one