clean slate - wishfull

wish i can start the new year clean slate,

but, we do drag along things we dont want from past years... owh well...

happy 2010, its my year

half of what is left

"i only have half of it when we met... i lost the other half just a while before we met... now u take it all. guess its not mine to keep in the first place" - a boy who lost it all

2010

its the year. few things on the list. better keep them to myself, so that i wont remember it. i dont have much to achieve either. i'll use the year just to heal my soul. and maybe, maybe... do some workout. its a year of beauty, yeah... lets call it just that... 2010, year of beauty

you have something of mine

some are yours to keep, others...

floodgate is opening

stop it before it pours.. help

influence

they said it is hard to influence people. it is impossible for me, then again...

'difficult takes a day impossible takes a week' - jay-z

no body knows

i heard this from someone very close to me. she said 'you wouldnt know the feeling of being lonely'.. i said to myself 'i do'. and the world went silent for a while, it understands me.

When you think that things only do happen to you once...

then your thought is wrong. it had happened again. like a movie. reminds me of what i did to others too. its the same thing... the score is 2-1 though, others win against me. or is it 2 all? i lost count. what does it mean when a person went silent all of the sudden for more than 2 months? i know what i mean when i did that... cant sleep, been skipping dinners.. if you read this, please respond back. i just want to talk... sorry for everything, i know not of what i did wrong.

do stay safe and stay out of trouble

goodnight.

this is it

i use to think that i will only start to write when i stop talking. maybe i will now, at least gradually.

let me gather my thoughts, until then..

"And the question is, is to have had and lost,
Better than not having at all?" Jay-Z